moongate.

Abandoned. I miss Pulua Sarang so freaking much. ):

Oh crap, my nose is suffering from a major major MAJOR leakage, oh god damn it. Tissue box and tissue paper piling up on my bed, again. I just ate (I think like an hour or so ago?) some japanese peas and I think I had a tad too much, got kinda sick of it. Due to. Overwhelming hunger. Thought it would be a great idea to like cook the remaining 1/4 packet of peas and ooooh, I was so damn wrong. I love the peas so much, but now I'm so afraid of eating too many at one go. K, why am I even talking about peas? Tell me about it.

I've been so unfaithful to my blog lately, awww. Life has been rather mundane. 'Cause of the yadahyadah daily routine whatever nonsense shit bullcrapblah. Uh, kayyy. I'm making no sense. OKAY. It's so late already. Understood.

Ok ok. Serious now. I've been cut off from the world, I guess. Due to the tremendous burden of having to study AND work at the same time. I'm so miserably time poor now. ): I can't even find time for me lately, well, only now. That's why I'm like making full use of it to chat, upload long dued photographs and what's not lar.

Hmmmm, one word to describe me, still. One word.
CONFUSED.
Can anyone tell me what do I really want?
Acutally I do, but it just doesn't come so easily, does it?
What I really want is so simple, yet so difficult to achieve.
Years, am I not patient enough?
Stupid tear-jerking scenes, stupid memories, stupid you.
Scaring haunting pasts, that doesn't fail to get into you..
Family.. lovers.. friends..
Yet again, I'm so worn out, so crest-fallen, so utterly upset.
Growing up has never been so hurting.
And Love shouldn't hurt.
Well, whatever.

Today saw me with bestie for toasts, teh-see and apple juice :] Thanks darling, for everything. Thanks for listening, giving me moral support, for your guidance, and that ever understanding heart of yours. Distance may have been the reason we haven't been seeing each other, but nevertheless you've still proven me wrong. Even with the distance, I'm sure you won't let this 7 coming to 8 years go to waste. I was wrong to think that you don't want to care anymore. But I should have been so much more understanding. I thank God. Thank Him for keeping this friendship ever so strong even though I've lost faith, that you girl, still make it all the way back, just for me. I'm deeply overwhelmed with gratitude, 'cause I've found you. Thanks Olivia.

Feels like I can finally express my thoughts for you, to you. :) I can't wait to attend your wedding, be the bride's maid on you wedding days in Singapore and Italy. I hope that you have found the man you love and you wish to be with for the rest of your life, have his little green eye babies and start a wonderful new life, a family :) I can't wait to carry your SON! LOL. Remember girl, I'll always be there like you have always been for me too. I LOVE YOU.

Su-hanna Quek Geok Hee has not been forgotten toooooo. YOU ARE SO NOT FORGOTTEN PLEASE. You are the strength that keep my flames going on this coming almost 3 years. Thank God that he has let you enter my life. I guess without you, I'll be wobbling my way through Poly. Heh. Thanks for all your little words of encouragement every single time I needed them, your guidance, your listening ear for hearing my terrible woes, your company! OUR FUN. :) Thank YOU, my fake lesbian partner. You will always be my lesbian crush. I'll always be your JOLEBEANIES :D

Time flew.
Where will he be.
Where will they be.
&where will I be...

"Someone who can show you the true meaning of Love, and not lust.. Anymore.."

Today was NAPFA and no work day. And I'm so fucking depressed.
Fucking 1 CENTIMETRE.
32 situps, stretched 38cm, 5 incline pull ups, 11.6s for shuttle run, clocked 16.43mins for 2.4km.. I passed all these.
BUT STILL, I FAILED THE OVERALL.
BECAUSE OF MY STANDING BROAD JUMP, THE FACT THATTTT I MISSED BY ONE FUCKING CM.
155CM and 156CM.
DOES IT MAKES ANY DIFFERENCE?! ):
I digress. Damn it.

I don't care, I'm NOT deluded by the fact that.
I AM FIT. LOL. :)

AFTER 5 stations and 2.4km run.
I lifted this HEAVY woman and walked down the isles lar. And I hurt my ass while trying to save hers! Piangggggs.
Love this photo to the maxxxxx :) Minus the tak glam-ness and greasy hair and face!

The girls who stayed through todayyy.






What's exercise without FAT FOOD after everything.
100PLUS, TOLBERONE, ICE-CREAM AND AND AND.
KFC!!!
Still I'm not satisfied, 'cause my meal kinda DOWNSIZE. ):

Okay, I'm really zonked out. And hungry again. Bed time for me.
Finally I can lay my head to rest and forget about all the nonsense and disgusting ppl. ):

Tobacco.

Today.. I had a one and a half hour lesson. Was late too, hahah. Good timing to be so anyway. But..... It made me ran like MAD :( And so, the group spent 20 minutes doing work and the rest of the lesson chatting yo. :p Roche IS irritating. LOL. Had lunch with them after class and went to print some notes. And I also found Babyyyyy in school! Yay. Chatted and off back home.

On a random note, there was this cute guy sitting right infront of me on my way to the bus stop! :D Toooo bad. He has got this ring on the finger yo. Doesn't look like an ordinary looking one either. So yup.

Went to Compass Point to look for a new cell phone. And woohoo, I fell in love with the model w890i the moment I was browsing for slim slim phones :D NO MORE shaker phone pls. :( Just damn sad that my w910i was such a bitch damn it. So BYE BYE TO YOU. Though I really love you, you have to go! :( LOL. Guess my Prada has got to wait :/ The gay-est thing is, I have no work scheduled this week. I have no idea why too. Hmmm :( NO MORE MONEY ROLLING IN.

Chilled at Starbucks with Boobies and Ethan after my dinner. Ethan is such a prick sometimes. ZZZ. LOL. So we got damn wasted again somehow. Need to kick this damn habit too. YAWNS. :( I'm like typing in staccato. I don't know why. LOL.

1st Avenue later at 10AM for set up! I missed that damn bloody place. Beats ANYWHERE in Business School seriously. :/ Last year yo. Sighhh. And off to TPY with my 2 sisters after set up. CIAO. Give you guys some pictures to look at ya? My god, this post is just WEIRD.


@ Haato with some lovings :)

ICE-CREAM MAKES HER HAPPY EVERY SINGLE TIME :)

You have all of me love.

Stay close and don't go.

SLURPS*

My baby bie. Acting fiercely horredously adorable :D

Coffee for the girls :D





Sweeeet. Ethan Thu Ang Zaw and Felicia Teh Jia Hui yo :D

That's all. Chinese music on repeat. :/
&The taste of tobacco lingers..

Holiday..

2R01'S CHALET 070408 - 090408

Absolute Vanilla :)

J spasms strikes again! Gna miss you two :(



Yay fats -__-

Take your clothes offfff!



Smile like you mean it.

Cosy up love, it's raining :)



Thanks R01 :) Nice knowing you guys. Take care!

SAMANTHA'S CHALET 120408 - 140408

:p



PROGRAMMERS :)))

FRESHMAN ORIENTATION 170408 - 180408

After Regatta with Jacq love :) WETNESS.


Last..

Why does every moment have to be so hard...?

Mon Coeur.

You guys MUST be thinking, "WAH LAO EH! finally you change blogskin lar!" HAHA, right? So much for putting up with my puny font sized blogskin :D Much appreciated. I've decided to use blogger's premade template for a change. It's so damn user friendly :D

Oh yeah, finally I'm back from today's event ah. Wishing SAMSAM a happy 21st birthday! :D HEE. Seriously, I think the 2 months holiday will always NEVER, seriously NEVER FAIL to make me FAT lar. All through holiday, I've been like binge eating in chalets, bbqs and outings. Seriously NOT helping at all. But oh wells, I'll eventually give in to good food! Met Calvin and Darren to go down to the chalet. We walked from White Sands in a god damn humid weather and I was just drenched in my own pespiration! ZZZ. Hmm, today's buffet at Sam's chalet was really great. Cheerios to the you tiao looking fish cake with mayo!!! Highlight for the night was the friggin' awesome CHOCOLATE FONDUE, baby!!! Oh yes, FUAD, I HATE YOU LAR. Not my birthday also got smashed by cake! ZZZZ. LOL. Later at SL tea party SURE die man. ZZZ. Why did I even say Liverpool will LOSE?! LOL. Anyway... They made a horredous amount of liquor concoction after dinner! LOL. My stomach just feels funny after so many different kinds and amounts of liquor entering it. Whiskey, Vodka, Jim Bean, Barcardi, stout, beer, white wine!!! BRRRR.... Scary. Sadly....I was not a tad tipsy at all! :D Not baddddddd. Normally I'd be gone with just a few cups. LOL. Darren was damnnnnn funny. He gets so red and silly when he's high. Got sun, he'll turn red.. No sun, ALSO turn red! HAHA. Lucky he went home! If not he'd be a goner at the chalet. Damn funny lar, he became part of the joke for the night. Heh. Kannan sent me off to the bus stop.. had a heart to heart talk with him.. Hmmmm.. Sigh. I'm sorry. ): That's all I can say now.

Hmm, later later later, school school school! Hope it will be an eventful one! And maybe steamboat for dinner with the programmers! WOOPHEY. I've been missing out so much lei. Didn't even go to a single meeting after camp! LOL. See how lar huh :) Ok! Updates sooooon :) OH YESSSS, upcoming events ah.
14 April - SL TEA PARTY
16 April - MEETING MY 2 BABIES :D
17 & 18 April - WEEK ZERO, orientation for freshies!
19 April - Great Poly Garage Sales @ GEYLANG :D (If you wna drop by, please tell me! garage sales lei!!! :D Many nice nice things on sale!)
21 April - KAI XUE LOHHHHH!
22 April - HAPPY HOUR!!! :DDDD
WAHHHHS. Jam packed. Sian, wish to meet nappalli soon lar!
BYEEE........!!

I didn't mean to say all those, I'm taking it back.

Balls.

AWFULLY BURNT OUT. After this entry I'm going to slap myself to bed for a long rest, though there's meeting later in the morning. Reckoned I'll be late anyway. I'm truely sucked dried to the max due to insufficient rest and I have been seriously going OUTSIDE for the past March. Anyway, for starters:

HAPPY 19TH BDAY TO MISS JACQKWOKKAMYAN :D

Okay, nvm that her birthday had already just passed :p Now we are anticipating for another Poldar's bday, MISS TANLAYSUANFELICIA :DDD My baby is going to be 19 in 9 days time :D Awfully packed schedules, I hardly even have time to rest sufficiently, well... It'ds just that.. Sometimes insomnia could take its toll on me...

My sunday night was spent with Mr Gabriel. And he keeps saying that I was acting rather weirdly. You really ought to know why... Sigh, the only thing I hope for now? Is to get through this very phase once and for all! Well... There's just soooo many things I have to keep in mind; Time and trust. And there's really no need to hurry, where you'd think you're going, Miss?? Whatever it is now, every happy moment is a bonus and every sad one is a basic. Yupp.. The night was short but sweet still. Went to bloody PS (cui....), haha and this silly didn't tell me we were going to the movies again, and soooo, we caught Spiderwick Chronicles! He just LOVESSSSSSS cartoons, funny mystical creatures (like water horse), magic and fantasy (HMMM. living in his own fairytale as well too. hahaha!) No wonder look like Patrick Star also! LOL. Funny lar :) YOU, MADE MY DAY. Actually, you make it almost everyday! :) Just so you know, I'm with you.. :)

MONDAY. I woke up so damn early that morning. Accompanied my two most retarded balls in the whole wide world and to BINGE, BINGE AND BINGE. HA. At the airport, from Macdonalds', to Starbucks, to Sakae Sushi! FOODMADNESS. I think we ought to receive GOOD KARMA 'cause we helped this caucasian man who seemed apparently lost and how to go about buying his air ticket to fly back to Jakarta. LOL, he thinks Babyy and I are MALAYSIANS. ZZZ. Pure chinese here, hello? LOL. Evening arrived after eating for what seemed like 43538322358923 hours, Boobies went to her baby's and MY Babyy went for her singing class. Me? I bought/borrowed a book to read and kill time waiting for them to get back to me after whatever they are done with. Literally NUA-ED and died at Babyy's singing school's lounge near PS, Dhoby (ARG!) for 2 damn hours. Went for FOOD again. Disgusting. We settled for soya bean and you tiao. It's surprisingly a very good combination! :) The little boy who puked at the entrace of Rochor tao huay store was, UTTERLY DISTURBING. I was so damn disturbed but I just can't help but look at the puke, and thought to myself, "So that is what I'm going to eat later." He literally puked out all his tao huay. Poor lil' kid :( Soon after supper, HOME SWEET HOME.


BABYY AND ME.
Cam-whoring in one of the toilets in Changi Aiport.
For like what? 1/2 an hour!? HAHA.


This morning was the SL workshop, so we had to go to school to try out the games on some of the DAE students. I just LOVE my station :) SLs, you'll know why. Soon :) LOL. Overall today was not bad, just that I'm seriously BEAT shit balls! I woke up at 7 today just to go to school. ZZZ. Left TP early and headed to Bugis to celebrate bb Jacq's birthday! :) Hope you had fun girl! We dined at Indulgez and KTV-ed at..... stone.... somewhere near Dhoby (UHHHHH! gross place!) Got awfully high on some disgusting Tiger Beer and went horredously off tune. I feel so old singing in a KTV lounge and drinking beer please. ZZZ. LOL. Well, numees twin love, you're always missing out so much fun! It's not your fault if you get sick babe, but do take care and get well soon! :) LOVE YOU :) I'm seriously nodding off alr. zzzz. Nights everyone.


The 9AM morning spasms. Candid and oh-so-random please.
Kandis, me, Shaun and Kannan.

Got drawn by Joyce and Jo-an lar. ZZZ.
Find X. Anybody?! haha.

LOL, one of the nicest picture just now.
BOOBIES AND BALLS.

More photographs to come, promise :)
Sleight of hand and twist of fate..

Giraffe.

I've got to wake up at 7AM tomorrow! ): and I'm still not going to bed. OSIP presentation by the year 3s. If I have the capabilities to make it through, I would have gone for it. Sigh, seriously stuck at the wrong course. What is service to me when I don't like it. Gross. x: Hmm, acutally I have got a place in mind for my SIP alr. Hope I can get in there, I think it will be very beneficial for me if I got a chance to serve there(:

Today was the day to catch up with my lost friends. I slept at 3.30AM this morning, andd... a surprise morning call from Miss Lee Olivia to go for breakfast. So I just washed up and headed hougang for macs. And barely even 2 hours, she got activated for a flight and she had to go home to prepare. /: So I went home and rotted till it was 3 and time to meet honeybuns and honeyxue :D Honey. Hee.

We went Sakae for a light meal and thought that PS was too boring. Initially we were planning to go Giraffe and the 2 kuku heads forgotten. So yeahs we went there around 5. Lol, I feel so damn relaxed and stupid. Yes stupidddd with them. :D Yay. Oh and for the entire day I was just craving for their chocolate cake :DDDD And I ATE IT. THE MOLTEN CHOCOLATE LAVA. It's like T H E spasm. :D

Great presentation and chocolate spasm :DDD
Bad picture though, 'cause it arrived when I went to the loo and when I came back, my vanilla ice-cream was melting away. So the quick snap.

Pretty baby :D

My super tak glam honeybunny baby :D Your picture scared me can!?

Hahah dumb sillies. :D Hmm bunny told me all about her camp instructing experiences. Which I find rather amusing how she handled those pesky kids and also about the camp instructors and student's ghastly encounters at the camp site. I was too engrossed honestly, and it's like the most scariest shit I've ever heard. And she said that's not all. She talked about the camp's and her ghastly encounters for more than an hour. LOL. Still not enough time to tell finish! x: Wahlao. Lol. Then Xue had to go to work, so we decided to detour to the airport and bunny accompanied me home :D Yay thanks honeyyy. Missed you larrrr. Sigh okay lar. It's getting late alr. Schoooooool and band later! ): Nights.

Sometimes I wish it was you...

Smile like you mean it.

Haha, so did anyone guessed correctly? G U E S S N O T : D Thanks for being so patient with Moi, your answer is right below : D



HA HA HA.
Damn exchange. Number ONE, and I got SUGAR and OIL, by TEHTEH. THANKS UH!


No. 2 was my EGGS.
No. 3 was a 40.5CM long PAD, disposable undies, and a packet of tissue.


No. 4 was the best, cucumber eye relaxing eye pads.


No. 5 wasn't that cocky, lip balm, stationery box and tidbits.


WTH?! WHY DID I GET NO. ONE!! HAHA, nvm I had my fair share of gift, enjoy the EGGS((:
Happy Christmas and Boxing Day everyone! (damn belated though.)

Haha, how's the holidays everyone? I hope you all had a great time! Well, I had truck loads of fun, even though I stayed home on Christmas day to finish my report. D a n g s. Right? Lol. Thanks PolJUNKdars for the X'mas party! ((: I enjoyed the junkie tonnes. Let me see, taiwan sausage, salt and vinegar chips, japanese rice crackers, japanese kachang puteh, loads of candy, dewberry biscuits, seafood pizza, jacq's very goooooood and yummy seafood salad (DAMN NICE), green tea, tehteh's mum's honey green tea brewed with so much love, 7-up, chipsmore, ice-cream, and absolute vodddddkkkaaa: DISCO VERSION. HELL YEAH! ALL HAIL JUNKIES :D (damn it larr, damn hungry now.. zzzzzz)

LIKE WOOOO...

I had a blast despite the very bad incident that happened. Thanks darlingssss! Feli love us, don't love monkey, OKAY? LOL. Drunk woman. See lar, drink some more shots larrr. Btw, I hope my eggs are happy k. They have faces, beware. ((: Love you allllll mucccch. And numees loveee, you are so brave! YOU WATCHED SAW 4. I'm so proud of you! Need me to relive the part when the officer got his head smashed in between two slabs of metal? HAHAHAHA(: Yay..

Somehow this picture just makes me laugh!!!!!!!! HAHA.
Today on boxboxbox day, went baking with my 2 sillies(: MY HAPPY FRIENDS! HAHAHA. Baking was kinda atrocious, semi-successful. But it tasted alright. So cheeeers. Oh and next time when you cook spaghetti, don't add too much water to the sauce. DIAO. LOL. Ame uuuuhh! LOL. Ended eating spawhetttiii. EWWW!!!! LOL Thanks for the day you both, for making me realise how fun baking and cooking is with the both of you around. I hope we can meet up againnn, end of holidays )):





Erm, I have no idea what creation we made.
Maybe Oreo flavoured cuppies with M&Ms.
HAHA..
Rushed down to Bedok to meet the bandits for K session. They GOT HIGH! Lol. Man my chinese sucks. :/ Lol I'm really an angmoh potatoe. More chinese songs for me k :D And btw boyfriend, the cupcake is horredous! HAHAHA. Don't try to make me feel better about my failed cuppie. BOOO. LOL. Singing slacking session after K outside KCC. LOL and a long ride home.

I DECLARE, my ear piece DEAD. ):
I hate one-sided music, a new ear piece, PLEASE?

Okayyyy, I think I need to get back to work? Grossssss. Ciaos<3